inner chaos
it’s an impulse to do something stupid, but i can not clam it anymore, setting up the goal and try to make a step, even my head says NO but my heart says GO!!!
my head well change and follow the heart in the end surely, skip all the reasons things, I'll deal with them after i don’t have to worry about them.
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maybe all these crazy thoughts is because my life now is fuxxxxking boring and decadent, i should start working with many things, there’s no space and time for escape.
however, i always escaping from something, maybe that’s my personality, not good for me to be who i want to, but so hard to face everything at very first glance, I'm scared to see the world~
it’s cruel but real.
still have chances to make my self stronger, i don’t need vaccination now, I'll grow with the treatments after the broken heart, that’s my way to the future.
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